How am I supposed to see the stars

I won't disown
Those things my heart has sown
The blame is mine alone
I made this fickle heart my own
But how am I supposed to see the stars
How am I supposed to see that farI see the cost
Of all this heart has lost
And how those dice were tossed
In lives this fickle heart has crossed
But how am I supposed to see the stars
How am I supposed to see that farHow am I supposed to start
And change an ever changing heart
Light some corners of a mind
That isn't there for me to find
How am I supposed to see
The stars you say are meant for me
How am I supposed to praise
Those stars with eyes I cannot raiseMaybe I'm supposed to say
I'm walking tall on feet of clay
Resting only when I check
The albatross around my neck
How am I supposed to see
The stars you say are meant for me
How am I to see